and indifference settles in

I need to be opened

to feel fire in my bones

I want to place my hands 

on something powerful

and raw

everyday I look for the possibility

in strangers

to find a laughter 

I can't help

to find a satisfaction

between skin

my nights hold me still

I have patience

I believe

that the beast I need

will emerge from the shadows

and ravage me

I will not let you

become significant

again

I want someone strong enough to lift me

into skies I haven't felt yet

I won't let this pain

take me into the dark

again

I walk about

looking for someone to take home

someone to wrap in green sheets

cover in laughter

and keep in between my legs

you never were the answer

to my loneliness

you never were

any kind of hero

just another broken down bastard

afraid of everything

he couldn't hold in his fist

I leap from place to place

leaving nothing but footprints

I will find my heart's desire

I will gain a love that cannot be 

spit upon

or broken by jealousy

and indecision

my fate will blind you

with its happiness

I will make love in every corner of the stars

and your cravings 

will lay unfulfilled

your madness

will be left behind

your shadow

will plague me no longer